I wonder why your hair was combed over like that and not in its usual mohawk…..but I can’t remember
Had your Papa been here and smoothed it down like he often did because he thought your mohawk was ridiculous 😉
I wonder if this was really the last picture I took of you when you were still yourself
When there was still Fish’s personality inside Fish’s body……but I can’t remember
So many things that I thought I would never forget, have started to fade
There are some things from this day that will never fade
I’m certain of that
I was so confident that day
I do remember that
No fear, minimal worries
That was saved for tomorrow – the actual surgery day
I sent your dad to get the rest of our things from the car while we were in the tiny waiting room and they took you away while he was gone
I remember that 😢
But it was going to be fine….we’d see you within the hour
My biggest concern was how would you ever get any sleep in the hospital and how would your brother and sister do, now that they knew what to expect – there are no guarantees on when we would be home and they had to be brave for their brother
So he could get his heart fixed
And now it’s come full circle and they know there are no guarantees on when we get to go Home but we must all be brave for each other and work on getting our hearts fixed
5 years ago today was the beginning of a different life for us
Some days are horrid
Some days are gruesome
Some days are just days
But some days are exquisite
Some days are joyful
Some days are easy
I never believed I’d be able to say those words but God’s grace is sufficient for me……
And this sweet child is whole and healthy in Heaven, so it is well with my soul ❤
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds Psalm 147:3
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